So I sit here, unable to sleep, preparing mentally for my work day today (I have to be there at 7:30 AM on the Fouth of July) and I find myself reflecting. This time 2 years ago I was doing pretty much the same thing except I was preparing for my Daughter's arrival. Leah (the wife, for those of you that don't know her) had been in and out of the hospital during her pregnancy and I was worried. I never told her that, but I think she knew. I went to work on the Fourth and a little later that week Leah was admitted to the hospital for what would end up being the last time of the pregnancy and they scheduled Lorelai's arrival. (Again for the benefit of those not familiar with me this is my Daughter) I spent a lot of sleepless nights leading up to that point and have had quite a few since then but July holds a special place for me since then and Independence Day jump starts my great week.
I'm sure that my journey to parenthood started out like many others. What I failed to mention above was that Lorelai was born 1 month (or so) early and I was not prepared for that. I'm sure that nobody is and looking back I don't think I would have been even if she had went full term, but what I can tell you is that I worried, a lot.
Fast forward to today, my little girl is not so little anymore, we just moved her out of her crib and to a toddler bed, she is talking in complete sentences, and is generally acting to old for her own good. Again, I'm sure I'm not the only parent to ever hit this point, but I'm now hitting a different kind of worry. Now, I'm getting to the wow my little girl is growing up and I have to worry about the fact that she is interacting with more kids her age, she is all over the place climbing, falling down, and there are always the other people that you have to worry about as it seems like the rest of the world seems to have lost their ever loving minds.
All of this is a roundabout way of getting to the point that despite my affinity to sleeplessness now, I wouldn't trade it for the world. My little girl is my world and while sometimes she is a lot of work, she is most definitely worth every second (and penny, let nobody lie, kids are expensive). We will mark her second birthday on Sunday, and are having her party on Saturday and I look forward to seeing family and friends. A lot has changed since Lorelai was born. Actually, everything has pretty much changed since Lorelai was born. I work for a different company, Leah is working as a Substitute Teacher, and our day to day is always changing because Lorelai is a goober (lol). I have a lot of friends that I don't get to keep in touch with as often as I would like since I changed jobs, and I have made a lot of new friends as well.
I'm very happy with my life right now and wouldn't trade it for the world. I have a great group of friends, and a solid family structure around me that make my life manageable and Leah and Lorelai make every day at work worth it. I have a job that I enjoy (as long as you ask me while I'm reflective like this, ask me while I'm there and I may not say the same) and I have a lot of interests that keep me busy in the couple hours a day that I'm not occupied with Lorelai or Leah. So you may see one of these posts pop up once and a while and it is really just me trying to clear my mind before I can finally get to sleep. I'm feeling pretty centered right now, so I'm gonna go ahead and be done now, but I'm going to end with a big Happy Birthday to Lorelai. I love you. Have a good night everybody.
